I believe that things happens for a reason, I also believe that everything has it’s time, that every dream has its age and every other thing will someday pass away.

I am there at a point of waiting, yearning and yielding. I am not at the most comfortable stage in my life- where I feel like I am not taken seriously, where I am not given a chance that I think I should be getting, where I am brush off and my work, is not flying like how a bird should be.

I know it’s a matter of TIME when this phase will pass and how “Well” I am going to score after overcoming it. But, I can’t help being human while I am at it.

I believe in God, and I believe in his promises that He will make me “The head and not the tail” and His plans that are way beyond what I can dream of dreaming and plans to prosper me and not to harm me.

I believe that what I have now in my pocket full of day dreams are the small bite size clues and treats for the near future ahead. I believe that as long as I hold on to His promises, I will be fine even when the world throws darts at me.

I am in need at this moment; I am distress thinking of how things right now are seemingly not looking my way.

For all my vague dreams that kept me going, the little surprises that seems so unrealistic. I know He is going to make something so wonderful and big. I know I am going to get to that vague “somewhere” and I know, I am definitely made for more than THIS.  

It’s just the little times, that little enemy inside, the little distraction that pulls me down.

I know I will be fine, though I really feel like breaking down.

Its times like this Lord, I remember that i am not in this highway, alone.

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2 I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven. Whether it was in the body or out of the body I do not know—God knows. 3 And I know that this man—whether in the body or apart from the body I do not know, but God knows— 4 was caught up to paradise. He heard inexpressible things, things that man is not permitted to tell. 5 I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6 Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.

 7 To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.