just finished watching "million dollar baby", its a great work and so far a good movie to watch to start the new year. the after math gets you into a reflective thinking zone, and i like that after watching something. metaphorically speaking-it makes things clearer at some point, birth questions and ends a lesson. but i think we learn/get that everyday when we wake up, when we walk out the street and when we meet somebody new. i came to australia and wept the 2nd night to bed, for the things that i left behind...for the things (like my school closing) un-known, for the things I kept on doing wrong and the words i dont feel like saying forever and hope that my actions will speak instead. slowly, time helped me adapt to my compartment...i learn to breathe and breathe alot more after knowing that the crossroad finally had a dusty sign board telling me that walking north would probably take me home. We can never have a short-cut home without getting to basses beforehand, and life is like that.

You leave something behind, to find something foreign then you walk along with it to finally realize that it has stopped you from looking back and while counting the stars…time comes and it drifts you off alone again, to find that missing something is just another base that will never go away. I don’t think in this lifetime we are able to not miss something…its part of life I reckon. Beautiful poetry can only continue if you bring it to a standstill in the middle, but we don’t need a dancer to tell us that we are just going to flip to the last chapter in a brief season and before we know it, another thriller comes along. I think its because we were gifted with emotions when we were born to this earth…it’s a treasure if you think of it this way, it’s a truck of pain to see you through a pint of wonderful moments. I would never want to do it all over again, because I’ve learnt how to cherish… although I wouldn’t be surprise if I somehow forget the c word and come back realizing after that in a short span of time. It’s a cycle…live and die, met and lost, see and forget and love, to love again.